Tuesday, 17 January 2017

Round up and new beginnings..

I feel like I haven't even said Happy New Year to you all yet, so better late than never - Happy New Year!

Being late with this post pretty much sums up my 2016. For someone who is usually the most organised OCD person ever, this year has been really laid back for me, in both my work and personal life.

In my job, I'm so lucky that my boss is amazing and gives me free rein of my hours - I get to decide when I work and don't, and usually I try to work a lot between April to September as it is obviously the busiest season, but also so I can enjoy my months off in the winter knowing that I have truly worked hard to earn them. During the two previous years, I usually over-worked and never had any time to myself, or to spend with the people I want to the most, and then last year I felt like I didn't work as much as I usually do. So this year, I am going to make sure that I give it my all and put everything I have into my work life...without going too far - all about that work/life balance eh?

Saying that, it's the time of the year where we all set goals and resolutions for the year ahead - losing/gaining weight, getting fitter, saving money or even sometimes all of the above! But, usually they are already broken by now and we give up, well I know I usually do!
This year I'm not going to set any certain goals for myself as such; I'm just going to work harder in my work - that being my full time job, my blogging and make up.

Another thing that I'm going to work towards is spending more time with my family and friends, rather than wasting it away on working too hard, or with certain people that well, basically don't deserve it. We all need to appreciate what we have and love - every minute of it - because we all know that, in a blink of an eye, everything can change, for the better or the worse.

A lot happened this year in my personal life that set me back for a good number of months, which is probably one of the reasons my work suffered as well. All I wanted to do was bury it at the back of my head, have a drink and dance and think it would go away on its own, but it didn't. To a lot of people, I come across as the most confident person ever, but I'm really not; I am the same as every other 20-something year old girl. I am constantly finding flaws in everything I do - what I wear, how other people see me, how I act and the way I look. For a long time, I was in this rut and couldn't get out of it, constantly feeling like I was worth nothing to some people. But finally, over the past few months (without sounding cheesy as hell) I've finally started to feel like the old me again and realise that I am worth more than what I thought I was. That is 100% down to my family and friends. I obviously thought the world of them anyway, but the past few months I have learned to appreciate them so much more for every single little thing they do for me. When I didn't feel like doing anything except lie in self pity and eat, they were there with the tissues and takeaways, and when I finally got my ass up and moved on, they were right there beside me motivating me all the way.

You have to go through some hard times to come out shinning at the other end and I feel that was 100% me. I know people will say to me it was only a break-up, but it really did affect me and I am only really noticing now that I am back to the 'old me', and how much I relied on my family and friends to carry me through it. I know people have been through much worse than me this year and I'm not saying my life is horrible at all, I had and have so much to be thankful for this year too and I did achieve so much as well, but ... yeah, basically 2016 wasn't my best year, and I'm not saying that 2017 is going to be either, but I am putting 2016 and all the negativity that came with it behind me and I am going to give 2017 a damn good go - positivity really is the way forward!

My circle of friends hasn't changed much in the past 10 years and I really wouldn't have it any other way, maybe Sex and the City is right you know; "Maybe our girlfriends are our soulmates and men are just people to have fun with".

Hopefully 2017 is your year too, go get it!

Thanks for reading as always my lovelies

Emma Jane x


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